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I want to change blogs I don’t know start something new my new one is possibly gonna be Ayyits_Marty hopefully no one has that already so yeah bye and see you on my new account !

Ok I’m back for only one thing I see people saying that the people in Boston deserve it and that who ever put the bomb there did a shitty job. What the hell is wrong with people and if they are trolls that’s very distasteful. And I also hear that people are making jokes about that. What the hell is there to laugh about people died people lost their body parts. They are gonna be scared forever emotionally and physically. And then there are directionators that say zayn did it. Listen who ever you are that put that up go fuck yourself you need help and you disgust me. And I’m not saying that because I’m a directioner , I’m saying that because I have a mind , and heart to know that is wrong of you to say that because of his religion and what he looks like. Well I think that’s it.

Please I know no one is reading.this but if you are just pray for the people in the Boston bombing. But other then that I’m getting off social media for a while because I don’t want to see anymore of that I just stoped crying I feel horrible because today was the day that I told my friends I love them and I don’t even know why I took this long to tell them I was supposed to tell them weeks ago because I felt something bad was gonna happen. Sadly I was right . It just didn’t happen to anyone I know but still. I feel horrible because I got to tell my friends that I love them and I got to see my family members again. Most of those people aren’t gonna be able to do any of that see their family tell their loved ones they love them or even a simple good bye. There’s just so much evil in the world I sickens me. Why just why. I mean I saw that this eight year old girl died I saw her picture and broke down even more. I heard there was this person that was running for Sandy hook , he’s not gonna be able to do that anymore not even walk. So people if you are reading this please tell your loved ones that you love them cause in this sick twisted world you sure as hell don’t know when it your time . I love you guys

Ok so if i haven’t told you I LOVE the shrek movies and I’m sooo happy because I get to see shrek forever after. Ahhhhh. Yes I love them that much I just can’t explain it . I would love to own all of them but my .. actually never mind I’ll keep that to myself I don’t want anyone to have pity of me . Ok well bye got to go back to watch it ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Uhhh I’m just so mad . And I have this feeling imma stay mad . And by the way to who ever is reading this I want to let you know some things about me . Once I get mad I can hold a grudge and for a long time . And sometimes I can’t wxprese how mad I am because I don’t want people to see me like this or given what ever circumstance . And there is a lot of anger buried inside me . And I don’t want to let it put because they are bad ways . I’ll update this later

—10:39

Well I’m not mad anymore but om feeling really sick yeah that’s it for today I guess.
Bye :)

** tomorrow ill post more about my past ok , if I manage to remember something else **

Well this is my first blog. Is that what its called ? Well anyways um im just gonna write anything that im thinking about because im getting lazy because i used to do this in a notebook thingy. Well right now i feel like really sad but happy at the same time. Actually i dont know how i feel. I think i feel likw this because im promoting the 8th grade yes. I dont know why this makes me sad. I sould be happy that im going into a new chapter in my life but it makes me sad because me and my friends are gonna be parting ways. Suck because i just found them as friends in 2012 and honestly i dont like change, i really hope that we still keep in touch. Um we just had our 8th grade photo that we are gonna get to keep Nd one copy is gonna be on display. Thats when it really hit me that im going to highschool , that im leaving my friends that im leaving the school that ive always gone to . All my life . And im scared because i feel like im growing up WAY to fast for my pace . Heh i still remember my first day of kindergarden . i was going to the school 4 or 5 days into the school year and i hadnt turned 5 yet . My mom had to lie to me saying she was gonna stay there Nd i turn around one moment and the next shes gone , that really scared me because I was in a place full of kids I didn’t know and I started crying but then I eventualy got used to going to school . Oh and I also remember I used to always step on the teachers feet , never on purpose I just didn’t watch where I was stepping then like in the middle of the school year she passed away and I remember getting a new teacher Ms.Parker she was nice to us and really strict at times but not as much then after that everything is a blur most of my past is a blur Nd maybe that’s what saddens me too Nd I sorta want to relive it again but at the same time I don’t . Yeah I really need to get a lot of things off my chest but some I really can’t say even if I wanted to and some I can’t explain and some I can’t remember but that memories agony stays with me. Well I think that’s it for now. Thanks for listening . No not listening reading I appreciate it a lot ♥

(Sorry its really long )

On a lighter note \^_^/
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